Day 199: How I cracked Buddhist mysticism and learned to Stop Desire

Almost everyone with a Facebook account has seen this one, right?

Sounds commonsensical, right? You simply remove the ego and desire, and all of a sudden you are a happy camper.
What this little illustration fails to explain is just how one removes the ego and desire. Even the Buddhist monks and scholars do not know how to explain that one, otherwise Buddhism would have worked, and we would all be happy campers living in a world of peace. But we are not.

I'm sure many people will say that one has to meditate on it. But meditate on what? What exactly is one doing in meditation? Looking at one's own mind. And/or trying to clear it. But what is one looking at, and/or trying to clear, when one does not even know how the mind works? What conclusions and realisations does one come to through meditation? The ones that his "teachers" have told him to come to. Screw that. It is not real, because one has not actually come to any conclusions; one is at best pretending to understand the knowledge one was told by "teachers", who are pretending to understand the knowledge. If they weren't pretending and really understood the knowledge, then they would have been able to transfer that knowledge effectively onto others, Buddhism would have worked, and we would all be happy campers living in a world of peace. But we are not.

In my life I was just enough attracted to spiritualism to try get the answers that science could not give me. And that failed spectacularly.

What really did the trick for me was stumbling upon Desteni, the single greatest source of knowledge still largely unknown to mankind. I learned the power of self-forgiveness, how the mind/ego works, how this whole existence works, and through practical application of this knowledge I was able to suddenly crack all the nice mystic words that spiritual "teachers" fail to explain on a daily basis. I learned not only to remove desire, but to remove the underlying causes of it, along with ALL other mental monsters that make humans unable to enjoy Life and to really Live with themselves and each other.

So if you're ready to stop spending time, effort and money on "teachers" who are pretending to have some greater knowledge than yourself, and become your own Teacher, your own Master, then click on the links bellow and start your own Journey to Life.

https://eqafe.com/ - the knowledge treasury
http://desteniiprocess.com/ - on-line course that presents the knowledge and tools in a structured way
http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/ - FREE version - not as voluminous, but just as amazingly effective
http://desteni.org/ - mother site with forums and people, who are ready to assist and support you on your journey

No one outside of oneself can fix self and/or this world. It must be Self. Join us.

Day 193: Misery loves company

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel miserable whenever I perceive that I am not succeeding with something and/or when something is not going according to my plans.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, whenever I feel miserable, look to other people to support my misery, and instead of me immediately taking responsibility for the way I experience myself and correct myself with self-forgiveness and with breathing, turn to other people to justify the way that I am feeling and talk to them about my misery from the starting point of wanting them to commiserate with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel justified and elevated within feeling miserable, thus allowing myself to keep the point with which I made myself miserable at status quo and doing nothing about it, instead of realising and understanding that I am participating within my mind and feeding it energy and am with that limiting myself and taking my own power to do something practical and change the point away from myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want other people to tell me what a poor thing I am, thus empower my misery, whenever I am miserable about a point that I haven't succeeded in, in order to further justify my own inability to handle the point, instead of realising and understanding that I am severely limiting myself with this kind of behaviour.

When and as I see myself becoming miserable whenever I perceive that I am not able to handle something, I stop and I breathe. I realise and understand that with this emotion of misery I am limiting myself from finding a practical solution by justifying to myself that I cannot handle the point I am being miserable about and will even go as far as looking for other people to confirm this experience of myself. Therefore I immediately release the trigger point and thought pattern behind the misery with self-forgiveness and I direct myself in breath towards finding a solution to the point and do not allow myself to limit myself with feeling miserable.

When and as I see myself engaging or thinking about engaging other people into a conversation about the point of my misery, I stop and I breathe. I realise and understand that this is a point of abdication of self-responsibility, where I want to talk to others in order for them to help me justify my misery and empower it, thus confirm my inability to be self-responsible and find a solution to the point that I'm being miserable about. Therefore I stop myself with breathing and release the trigger point and thought pattern behind wanting to confirm and justify my misery, and direct myself in breath towards finding practical solutions and I do not allow myself to limit myself with misery and look for other people in order to justify it.

I commit myself to, whenever I am seeing myself becoming miserable, stop and remove all points I can find about the uprising emotion with self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, because I realise and understand that when I allow myself to be miserable, I am abdicating my self-responsibility and power to find solutions to whatever is bothering me and causing the misery.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to support other people's misery, whenever we talk about points that make them miserable, instead of realising and understanding that I am justifying their inability to direct the point into an outcome that would be best in the context of best for all and disempowering them from doing so, because I would prefer it if they would support my mind like that as well, if I came to them, which I realise and understand is unacceptable.

When and as I see myself engaging in conversations with people that are miserable within a starting point of validating and justifying their misery, I stop and I breathe. I realise and understand that I am supporting their mind in limiting them from actually finding solutions for their points, because I would want them to reciprocate like that if the roles were reversed, and I also realise and understand that with this behaviour I am supporting the individual's and collective inability to direct oneself and be the solution to all that is here and all that self has to handle, therefore I release from myself the point of abdication of self-responsibility that I want to empower in them in that moment and I direct myself in breath towards finding solutions, and I do not allow myself to participate with this pattern and support this abdication of self-responsibility.

I commit myself to stopping myself and directing myself towards a solution that is best for all, whenever I see myself wanting to console and support other people's misery, because I realise and understand that otherwise I am only supporting disempowerment within myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into misery, whenever I feel too lazy to face and handle and direct a point, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for other people and want to talk to them in order to justify that I cannot handle this point and that my misery is justified, when in reality I am simply being too lazy to handle the point.

When and as I see myself wanting to go into misery because I am being too lazy to handle and direct a point, I stop and I breathe. I realise and understand that I am only justifying and empowering my laziness with misery, therefore I release the trigger point and thought pattern behind the misery/laziness with self-forgiveness and I direct myself in breath towards solving and directing the point, and I do not allow myself to be lazy about it.

I commit myself to immediately stopping myself whenever I see misery arising from laziness, because I realise and understand that I am only justifying my laziness with misery and am limiting myself from directing the point, therefore I commit myself to remove the laziness and direct the point(s) into an outcome that will be best for me within the context of what is best for all.

Day 192: Feeling threatened by other people's success

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel threatened, compromised and diminished by someone else's success.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior, less than and bad about myself, whenever I see that someone has succeeded in a point which I would like to or am trying to succeed in myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel jealous and envious of someone whom I perceive has succeeded in a point or points that I am trying to succeed in myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a positive value to the word success and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel superior, whenever I perceive that I have succeeded within something and on the flip side feel inferior, whenever I perceive that I have not succeeded.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a negative value to the word failure and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior, less than and negative and bad about myself, whenever I perceive that I have failed in/with some point.

When and as I see myself feeling inferior, whenever I see/perceive that someone else has succeeded in/with something that I would like to succeed in/with as well, I stop and I breathe. I realise and understand that within that moment I am participating in comparison and competition constructs of my mind, therefore I immediately release the trigger point and thought pattern, I forgive myself for comparing and competing within my own thoughts, and I direct myself in breath and do not allow myself to have any energetic reactions towards the success of others. 

I commit myself to stopping and removing any and all energetic/emotional reactions towards other people's successes and my own as well, because I realise and understand that any kind of emotional reactions to success spring from my own comparison and competition mind constructs, with which I abuse myself and potentially others as well while allowing my mind to run rampant with polarity constructs thus feeding it energy to survive as ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect and equate success with winning, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like a winner, whenever I perceive that I have succeeded at something, and on the flip side feel as a loser, whenever I perceive that I didn't succeed at something. Within this I also forgive myself for feeling like a loser in the light of another's success within a point that I myself would like to succeed in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad and angry with myself and blame myself for failing or not succeeding, whenever I see/perceive that someone else has succeeded in a point that I would like to succeed within as well, instead of realising and understanding that I am judging myself and with that limiting myself within comparison and competition.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to myself in the face of another's success with the thoughts/words: "They can do it, they are strong, you cannot do it, you are weak", instead of realising and understanding that within that very moment of addressing myself as "you", I am experiencing and allowing and accepting the ultimate separation of myself from myself through energies of wants/needs/desires/competition/comparison, and I am allowing my mind as ego to have complete directive principle over me.

When and as I see myself having backchat and talking to myself about how and what I am like within comparison to another's success or failure, I stop and I breathe. I realise and understand that I am in that moment accepting and allowing myself to be severely separated from myself into multiple characters that are having a fight, therefore I stop my thoughts with breathing, I apply the necessary self-forgiveness and I direct myself in breath with awareness and do not allow myself to have inner conversations with myself.

I commit myself to becoming aware of my internal conversations with myself and stopping them, because I realise and understand that in the moment of having an internal conversation with myself, I am fragmented and separated into multiple dimensions which are run automatically by my mind, and I do not have any directive principle over myself, but am abdicating it to my mind as ego which is in that moment feeding itself energy to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel superior, whenever I see/perceive that someone has failed in a point that I was working with as well, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel called and justified to give advice to that person and help them from the starting point of wanting to fortify and cement my feeling of superiority over them, instead of realising and understanding that I am participating within my mind's ego polarity construct of feeling positive, more than and superior in the face of someone's failure, and on the flip side will feel negative, less than, and inferior in the face of someone's success, all stemming from comparison and competition of my mind as ego with which I generate energy for it to survive.

When and as I see myself feeling superior, positive and good about myself in the face of someone else's failure, I stop and I breathe. I realise and understand that I am in that moment participating with my mind as ego in constructs of comparison and competition, therefore I release the trigger point and thought pattern with self-forgiveness and I direct myself in breath, not allowing myself to have any energetic movement within myself towards another's failure, but direct myself in equality towards doing what is best for us both within the context of what is best for all.

I commit myself to stopping and removing all feelings of superiority in the face of someone else's failure, and all feelings of inferiority in the face of someone else's success with points that I am working with myself, because I realise and understand that with those feelings I am allowing separation within myself form myself and all that is here, and am not being the directive principle of myself, but am abdicating that function to my mind as ego and am feeding it energy to survive.

next point will be: misery loves company

Day 179: "Sharing is polite"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with frustration, anger, annoyance, disbelief and sadness, whenever my partner/someone else doesn't offer me any of what they are having.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that whenever someone/my partner is having something that can be shared, they automatically have to offer me some.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that I must always offer other people whatever it is that I am having.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/define offering people whatever I am having as polite.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define/perceive myself as a polite person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty whenever I do not offer someone whatever it is that I am having, when I want to have all of it for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience a sense of loss, whenever I am having something that I like, and I see/perceive that other people want some of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel  forced to offer other people something that I am having, and within this experience a sense of loss, whenever I want to have all of it to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define/perceive certain items in life as my favourites and want/need/desire to have all of them to myself.

When and as I see myself wanting to have something only to myself, I stop and I breathe. I realise and understand that I am participating within my mind's construct about that thing, where I have defined it as something good, better, superior, and thus want to have it all to myself, therefore I investigate the trigger point and thought patter with writing, release it with self-forgiveness and direct myself in breath within the realisation that I do not deserve or need all of whatever it is that I was wanting only for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define/perceive people who do not offer others whatever it is that they are having as impolite and rude.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty and embarrassed about not offering other people whatever it is that I am having.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define/perceive the act of sharing as a benevolent, polite and superior act, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define/perceive myself as a good person, whenever I am sharing something with other people, instead of realising and understanding that I am participating within my mind's polarity construct of perceptions that whomever shares is a good person, and whomever doesn't share is a bad person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to share things with other people from the starting point of wanting to be perceived as a good/benevolent/nice/polite person, instead of sharing from the starting point of doing onto another what I want to be done onto myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire for other people to perceive me as a good person because I share stuff with them, not realising and understanding that I am actually buying their affection.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to buy other people's affection by sharing things with them.

When and as I see myself wanting to share something with other people within the starting point of wanting to be perceived as a good person, I stop and I breathe. I realise and understand that I am participating within my mind's energetic construct, where I define people who share as good and friendly, and therefore want to share to be perceived by others as good and friendly, so that I might enjoy the same reciprocity from them in the future, therefore I release the trigger point and thought pattern with self-forgiveness and direct myself in breath and do not allow myself to buy other people's affection and friendship with sharing things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, whenever I am sharing something with others, expect the same from them in the future, and then be disappointed, angry, frustrated, resentful and sad, whenever my expectations are not fulfilled.

When and as I see myself expecting someone to share something with me because I have shared something with them in the past, I stop and I breathe. I realise and understand that I am participating within my mind's polarity construct of wanting to have a favour returned, which means that I did the sharing in the first place in order to have it returned, and not as an expression of equality, therefore I release the trigger point and thought pattern with self-forgiveness and I direct myself in breath without expecting anyone to give me anything, because I realise and understand that I am responsible for providing for myself whatever I require.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/define the act of sharing as a favour to whomever I am sharing with, not realising and understanding that I am doing so, because I have attached a value, monetary or other value, to whatever it is that I am sharing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel superior when I am sharing because I perceive that I have put effort and work into acquiring whatever it is that I am sharing, and therefore should be respected and thanked for sharing, and that the people whom I am sharing with should share with me in the future. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when being thanked for sharing, feel awkward and wave the thanker away with "it's nothing", when I in fact do not feel that it is nothing, but expect the thanker to share something of theirs with me in the future.

Day 157: The Eurovision Hunger Games

Today was the Eurovision song contest, which I used to watch with my family when I was little. I stopped quite a few years ago, when the quality of the music dropped to an astoundingly low level, giving way to the visual stimuli and cheap "catchy" beats that replaced it.

But this year, just for the sake of having a chance to view it on a huge screen tv, I gave in to nostalgia, knowing fully well what to expect.

So two days ago I watched the semi finals, and in a given moment, the show host turned to one of the performers, and said in a highly snobbish way that he looks fabulous. The scene reminded me of a movie I watched last year, the Hunger Games. The similarity between the movie and this real life show was astounding. Only the killing was missing. 

Here we are, a world in peril, crippled by wars, famine, slave labour pollution and the division of the population into a small elite and a vast majority of increasingly unhappy "citizens", yet we as individuals do nothing about it, because we're too entertained, too busy, and too limited, to even conceive that we, as a part of the whole, are responsible for the mess that humanity finds itself in. We are too busy supporting the system to even notice how we are supporting the system.

The ironic part was that the slogan of this year's contest was "We are one", which was meant to give the average European a sense of belonging, and to promote the slowly but surely coming merging into the European Superstate. That's all fine and dandy, only the average European is not even remotely aware of where it's comfortable lifestyle is coming from. It's coming from the wars, famine, slave labour and consequential pollution of the other parts of the world, which are conveniently termed as "second" and "third", as to not be seen as part of this "first" one, thus "not being our problem". And that's how we deal with that.

Unfortunately for us, limited beings of the "first" world, there is no such thing as three worlds. There is only one enclosed Earth, an interconnected system of systems, which is all but collapsing into itself. The fact that we're not noticing it yet is due to it's physical size, but this is also catching up with us, as the global monetary-economic system, whose mathematical design is working against Life itself, puts more and more people on the street - even in the so called "first" world.

When do we truly realise that we are in fact one and that each one is equally responsible for the abuse that is going on? Will it only happen as we experience the nuclear winter? Or not even then?

We need a new system, one that supports Life and all living beings, but that will only happen when 51% of us realise all of the aforementioned. For that we need to rid ourselves from the imaginary reality that we have conditioned ourselves into throughout our lives by following the programming and thus perpetuating the sins of our forefathers.


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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect/equate the eurovision song contest with cosiness, comfortableness, fun and safety, because I used to watch it with my family when I was little.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define/perceive watching the eurovision song contest as a fun activity, instead of realising and understanding that while I am being entertained, billions of beings on this planet are suffering and dying for me to be able to be entertained.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to simply accept the eurovision song contest as something normal in this world, instead of realising and understanding that it is simply another diversion point, with which I keep myself oblivious to the world in peril that surrounds me and my own personal responsibility towards it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself with the eurovision song contest, and define/perceive myself an authority for giving critique on it, instead of realising and understanding that I am participating within a superiority construct of my mind, where I will compare myself to the contestants and criticize them in my belief that "I would do better" or support them, because the song might have struck a chord that appealed to me, not realising and understanding that I am making this activity a part of my own personal bubble, in which I am so self-important that watching the show and giving my opinion on it is more important than all the suffering that I allow by participating within this construct and therefore ignoring the suffering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to watch the show with the starting point of choosing a favourite that I would then root for and identify myself with, instead of realising and understanding that I am participating within a mind polarity construct, where I will feel superior, happy and positive, when my favourite is doing well in the rating part of the show, and will feel inferior, negative and sad, when my favourite is not doing well in the rating part of the show. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have energetic reactions/emotional responses to how my favourite is doing in the rating part of the show, instead of realising that this is exactly how I keep myself enslaved and blind to the actual state of the world, by creating and filtering my own version of it, where I will then talk about my favourite and try to get others to agree with my opinions and perceptions, not realising and understanding that with this action I am only powering my mind as ego of thoughts, emotions and feelings that power the separation between human beings in the world and making us blind to each other and seeing ourselves in another, because then we believe that we are seemingly different, when in fact we all have the same basic needs, which should be provided for everyone equally, but are in our current reality provided only for a few of us out here in the imaginary "first world".